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You could say all the fighting took its toll. I've been quite scatterbrained lately. 

I've found it difficult to focus, difficult to plan, and where the way forward is typically clear for me after finishing a project like this -- I've been struggling to ascertain exactly what it is I ought to be doing next.

I've been wanting to make another post on here for a while. Since completing this site, I've hardly used it, which is sad. But I'm here now and so I just want to get a few things off my chest. Think of it as a "public" (no one wi . . .

It's been a bit since my last real upload. I wasn't sure how I'd feel after this one. Now that it's out though, I'm reminded of what it's like. 

Often the week or two after a big project like this, for me, feels somewhat like a hangover. Low energy. Tension headaches. Low-key depression. Brain fog. An inability to really watch the video myself. 

As of now, the video is still 1 of 10, with Getsu Fuuma Den and Rygar close behind. I expect Rygar will pass it soon. Just like with my last few uploads, there was no "second wind" . . .

At the very end of last year I uploaded a members-only video to my YouTube channel titled "Changing My Perspective" that went over some thoughts I had regarding the future of my channel and things about myself I believed I needed to work on. 

A lot of what I said in that video still rings true. Some of what I touched on has been in-place for a while now. Some of it, I still need to work on. 

The first part of this year I had two main focuses. One was giving the "podcast" idea I had a real shot. The other was making the best video I could pos . . .

This post was originally made to my ko-fi page on the 2nd of November, 2023 which can be found here.

There was a moment in July where I felt like my channel was seriously prepping to explode. I was getting thousands more impressions by the sole grace of YouTube. The view count on my older videos began to climb — and they climbed rates that caused the analytics to curve upwards in a way that might suggest a potential for exponential growth. It felt like all the hard work and the . . .

This post was originally made to my ko-fi page on the 20th of September, 2022 which can be found here.

I do a lot of thinking. Too much thinking, I think. But sometimes thinking is all you can do. The past few months I've found myself in a state of perpetual submission to my own fatigue & exhaustion. I've put a great deal of *thought* into the channel, but thoughts only get you so far. They can also start to become a burden after long periods of inaction.